herbivore united

I love eating, I am an eternal foodie. And what I like the most is non-vegetarian food articles. I love cooking for that matter it satiates the taste bud for I can almost cook everything I like.

Now here is the problem I keep on cooking and keep on eating. So this hardly shed weight of 17 kg will be back on my body in no time. Only logical option I can see is to stop cooking, for that I will have to turn vegetarian. Because I will rather die than eat veg all the time. Sounds good to me. The plan is to turn super skinny. Just for the heck of it.

Alcoholic beverages I have limited to few binge drinking sessions in a month. That's working out fine too. Apart from these behavioral changes there are a lot of things which is keeping me occupied. And in no way I would like to compromise on the way of life I have chosen for myself. 

This is a far cry from what I have been earlier in my career and personal life, but then what option I have now. I want to do everything I wished for ever by next one year. And I will have to be on my toes and not bogged down by anything cheap and lame as my Manager  :P

How I wish to type my resignation letter using just the middle finger. :D

Once a Frog always a Frog...

Given an option of going to Marathahalli from either Silk Board or Indiranagar side. I will choose Indiranagar. Again if given the option of going by bus or a chauffeur driven Sedan, I will choose Sedan. Between the choice of being an employee or the owner I will choose being an owner. Being a part of middle class family or a business family, I will choose the later. 

These choices are so obvious and I failed to see that because I used to think that there are few things in life which supersedes all these options. I used to believe in something. I have no idea why. And then I was taught the hard way that I should not have believed in those. Successful people; they do the obvious so meticulously and with panache that you start getting the feeling that it's right thing to do.

You feel so wronged by yourself when you accuse someone of something they did for being obvious. There was no point even talking about it then. You fail to see the obvious and got yourself hurt. If someone comes to me and asks what is my take on life then I would say 'fuck off'. Because it's obvious for me and that kind of response is expected of me. The negating emotions in life cuts off all the good things which happen for good; and seriously; you are smarter than that to think over it. Look beyond the obvious and there lies your answers to almost everything. Your holy grail. 

It was always one life. One life give or take, make or break. I am lucky enough to be living two. One before  that day and one after that day. 

You dream big, think of beautiful things which are going to happen in life. You plan out almost your entire life. You even plan with whom you will spend all those later days realizing those dreams and eventually die a content man. But suddenly everything comes to a stand still. You cant move out of that date, that time, that period. you feel trapped, you just wriggle and make it look even more bad.     

everything on rent

My roomie 'W' made this arrangement with the water guy. The water guy is 'Chandu Wala Hari', a budding entrepreneur. He started at Chandu's and now he owns a water business. Each bottle comes with 'HP' as a initial. Highly potent, highly perverted, highly pissed, highly pured or simply Hari Prasad. Whatever...

The deal is that he will supply drinking water to our house and we will pay him at the end of the month. He is close to us so he can come chill out, have a smoke or a peg and go. That's added benefits of being close to us which this water guy enjoys almost every time.

Now I realize that everything we have; or in better words; every service we have got is on rent. starting with our house, cable connection, internet connection, newspaper, electricity, water, food and in a broader perspective, friends, well wishers, family, love, affection almost everything around me is somehow or the other rented. We just don't own them. They are not ours. We just use them and pay for them later. 

As a matter of fact I am still paying for falling in love last time :P

At this point of time there is nothing which can be termed incomplete, because we complete it by taking things on rental. 

I am almost sober for last one week ending today. Still shit happens and few hours ago we all four were fined for not having a platform ticket, which would have been a rental for being on the railway platform. Zooming on Bangalore's road at late night in a car, blaring loud music is fun and sober too. 

I can feel my body melting and adjusting itself into bones and other parts of my skeleton. I feel my head melt at times. May be Bangalore is too hot or I am just plain fucked up there on top floor. This headache is some kind of withdrawal symptom. Every night I feel something splitting my head from between. And the dope is not there this time to make it go away so it just takes revenge, mind fucks me with a vengeance. 

All this cacophony in the world seems to accumulate and get ready for that blast. I used to burst with emotions, tears, feelings, love and what not. Now what remains of them is just plain pain, meaningless pain. A constant pain to remind me that I am done now.

To hell with it. It's been a week and now I sign off.

Social Experiment # 1

Part of my journey into the unknown.

Mom used to say "Beta don't drink or smoke"; and we used to think old timers, huh!

So we did it, and did it to an extent where the demons in them started looking down our shoulders scratching our life bit by bit. We never knew or never cared to realize the fact in front of us.

So I got curious, you may say very late in life, but yeah I am a slow learner in these matters of life skills.

Went ahead and did it. Did it with a panache so that it looks good even if it fucks the life out of my body. But then there was something holding me back and never dared to cross that morbid, thin and almost invisible line. But now I am self aware of the fact that I will never be able to do it even close to that. So I put myself in reverse now. And this is where my social experiment kicks in. I am going to shun the very essence these intoxication carry for me, for a start. I am going to shut myself down on these. And check my own self, my own will. Never did it 'coz never cared for. But I want to do this. Every week or month I am going to shun one thing and start a new one to replace that in totality of it.

And then jot down what happens next... 

If not you then atleast it will keep me entertained.